arghhhhhh!!! wat the *#@**#!!# why tiz few day i oso like tat ge...terrible in bad mood!! honesty last time when i get anger..i wont easily use or speak out bad words..i will try to control myself..but nw i notice im quite use to it to release my anger!! dunoe the reason..but it help!
hengggg!! from tiz seconds onwards,tiz person really make me feel terrible disappoint on her...i deeply loss my confidence on her..now, to me she is a fish monger! SELFISH..sorry, she make me feel tat..i have to express here..orelse i will get mad of myself!
we knew each others more than two years..turn to become a close friend more than 3 months..before we get to knew each other deeply..we just a hi bye friend..but within the 3 months we get to knew each othere quite well..but today,from tiz seconds onwards..she make me put a full stop in our realtionship! i ask myself again and again..why la..have to turn up like tat..is better to have more friends than enermy..but very sorry,i cant take it..she is not exist in my friend list anymore.. she give me a feeling of betraying me..i hate it!! you can make jokes on me..i can be the clown if i can make u more smile or more happier..scold me if you are dun satisfy with me..but not betray me! my feelings of get betray by her is not just one incident...is more than that! at least 3rd or 4th incidents lead me have that feelings..
the incident that she really disappoint my hope on her is about a runs. she told me that last time she did joined some k.l runs..so,in such inconincidene a runs was goin to held at k.l..im definitely interested and register for the runs..so,i asked her..do u wana joined together with me..we take the same category..since we din joined a runs together before..and she also agreed..i din pujuk her or watz..she willing to take it..okok fine! when nearly to the dats of runs, im inform from email for race pack collection..but tat time im working..cant get leave and no offday..so, i terpaksa asked her to get it for me..becoz, she also have to get it ma..i did the con sent letter..photostate ic everything done..and pass it to her. Ahah~ the day before the run..i did msg and called her tat time and place we will meet. so,early morning about 6am i called her when im on the way to the place..i just inform her im on the way..confirm her exactly place..u noe wat she say ?? " sorya..im not cuming for the run..becoz i get sore throat..scare later run till halfway fainted." when i heard it, im freeze!! WATZZZ?? PARDON?? omgosh~ dun you have a brain?? or answer me in sleepyness??!! wat you aspect me to wear? i have no vest.....nvm, i can wear last year vest..but how about the bib number?? is okay...but the most important is my Chip!! without it how u gonna me get to noe my rank & timing?? no matter how i have to get it..becoz i pay for the run! End out, i solve it with driving F1 to her place and get it from her..when reach to get it oredi 6:30am..my run start at 7am..so,do u think tat i can get there on time..start run at 7am?!! is impossble..sumore the full and half marathon runner already start their run earlier..all the way get to dataran got road blocking! ishhh~ luckily when i reach there..they just begun the run 5 mins earlier..the runner is running all the way from starter line. me le?? running all the way opposite to them to start my run at starter..becoz have to step on the mat and activate the chip..im doin a big U-turn lo!! wasting my energy..everybody is looking at me..feel uncomfortable..never happen before..and will not happen also..i alwayz prepare myself..make sure sufficient warm up! but she make my runs upside down!! okay fine~might me a small matter for you..but i really concern for result...my rank and timing! the timing at least i can time myself but the rank..i have to check online..so, wat i did ?? i type my name..''sory,we din have any record.." nvm mayb is not accurate..i type my bib number-80223 ..henggg~ guess wat? is her name!!!!!!! wat the FFFFFF how can you do tat to me???!! dun told me tat u wrongly taken to me..i cant accept it!! is such a big mistake u made!! it means tat tiz year i wont have my certificate! but she will get my certificate by post...omgosh~ till nw i still cant accept it is a reality..my emotion still unable to stable down! i work hard to run all the way...till berpeluh peluh..then u get the certificate! it might be a small matter to me..but not me pls~ i did collect it from years to year...nw im missing one of it because of u! ur ''good deeds''! you make me cant close up my eye to sleep..haihzz~ the conclusion tat i can make from all the incidences is -she cant be trusted..selfish...hopeless..
other than the above attitude, the worst is eventhough she dunoe the things or not familier with the place..she will say ''yaya i know it..i know the way..trust me..i can guide u" bullshit!! if you dunoe say you dunoe la...i wont blame or scold you..but pls dun berlagak there..with full confidence! untill show me the wrong way...i have to do turning and turning..when i double confirm with her'' are you sure noe the wat to get there?" i asked ''yaya..you follow this way first..when you reach to that area i only will rmb the way to continue.." she answered. aiyooo..mean you are not sure lo..so,what for you guide me? i told her that i oredi google map to go..but it might take a long time ..but she answered.."nvm you just follow my way..i will lead you" end out until sesak jalan..till have to call friend to help us getting out from there..haihzz~ terrible!! my mood still not cool enough yet..hot hot hot!!
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