gomenasai...ごめんなさい

gomenasai..

sorry..

minta maaf..

对不起。。

对吾咀。。

that is the only word i can say..

is too late to apologize??

out of that, i cant do anything..

there is misunderstanding between us..

i did try to explain it...but

it turn worst...

at this moment,

im still confusing of the reason

that cause you angry..

美丽的谎言？？

make you lost trust of me..

but,i juz wana keep sum surprise..

it jz tat simple!

pls dun too trust of 6th sense..

the accuracy might be wrong..

or the evaluation??

you cant fully blame me bout tat..

since u gv me the chance to evaluate..

i hv the right to gv out my opinion...

no matter hw the bad the result is..

it jz a number!

doesnt mean anything..

if still cant accept the result...

jz forget about it..tatz it~

i hope it wont cause as a barrier in our friendship..

but no matter how...

you're still in my sista list!

im still believe in friends forever~

it gonna be another day with the sunshine..

never give up!

gambateh!! @.@

Energetic

feel ohmm now!!

after wake up from tidur mati for hours

continuous 3 days 3 night of "hard works"

hahaha...pay off!! worth it to do so..

hard works?? yaya...

my ''mummy'' came to k.l for meeting..

is 4 days 3 night...for sure!

i'll grab tiz chance to meet her as well..

treat her nice food..do some shopping..

though is quite tiring of doin planning..driving..

but the laughter and happiness ady to overcome it..

im willing to do again if there is another chance too!

pls dun feel sory...troublesome for me

you're welcum to do so...

becoz you're my dearest mummy~

moreover,i have to thank you so much

for take caring us when we really need help..

if not ,i think we had bored and died in depression dy..

you are my angle...is faith link us together..

to me, our relationship is precious,i'll treat it nicely..

never let it end with regrets..

honestly, you giving me a feeling of

safety..comfortable to be with you..instead of ''tiger face''

lovely mum!

still fresh in my brain tat our first night meet....

we had dinner at tropicana city mall...

at otak otak place..order otak otak!

i feel surprise tat you asking me wat is otak otak..

thank god..you like the taste!

2000,night is still young~

we been to I-city ,shah alam...

actually was also my first time to visit there..

wow~ the night view of the colourful trees..amazing!

never thought tat you will complaint of in hunger instead of sleepy...

sumore in midnight..haha..let go~

jom ! have supper at SS2..

is 0100, time tat i sent you back hotel..

half of the day gone...

hmm...tuesday night..

thought tat we cant hv dinner together..

bcoz, you mention tat might be spent with friends..

but end out, a sudden attack of call..

of course i wont you have a lonely dinner..

so on the way to fetch you,keep on using brain juice..do planing..

is too sudden! my mind is blank of nice food..

feel excited we can have dinner together..

at last, we went to KlCC....

again, half day gone...

wednesday night..not really spent time with you

but, at last i manage to make it...

huhuu~ so fast! time fly with happy moments

is thursday..a day, we have to say goodbye ..

i wish tat never say goodbye..but...

may you hv a safe journey of flight..

im sure we will meet very soon~

take care...

love you..muackzzz~ ^^

Miss you

just back from college..

last time my first work to do is

hanging around fb..

but start now on..

i change myself..dun wana be fb addictor!

no days no nights..

bad for health!!

but i miss you so much~

i use to wait you on9 and chat with you

but nw i cant do that anymore..

i have to stick to the timetable..

if nt,my plan will spoilt..

but i miss you so much

when i flip over the pages of books..

you pop up in my mind..

i cant control it..

it is so difficult for me....

to stop thinking of fb..

chating with you..

just wana get to know your recent doing

is more than enough

omgosh~

wat happen to me??

im still wondering...

we live together only for some short days

but it seem i know her long time ago

we just separate not even for a month..

but it seems a decade ago..

haihz.......

but im still miss you so much

hmm..i think this is the feeling of the child

that miss her mum who at another part of the world..

take care...

miss you...

love you....

Jacob walk 2010

In the early morning of 0500 i woke up

i thought im the first got out from bed

cz usually im the only one who active in run & walks

bt im last! omgosh~

they(family members) were so excited for the walk!

wow~not bad!

maybe i had sucessfully influence them to be active in sports..

"hey hey! make ur move faster!!

if we out frm hse late,no more parking.."

they said to me when im stil brush up..

okok! im done..after changing & quickly jump into the car..

bt i din hv my breakfast yet??!

no worries! there will hv a lotz of biscuits and milk waiting for you

an half an hour ride..we reached FRIM,Kepong!

after registeration..changed on jacob shirts..

breakfast...still hv lotz of time to start the walks~

as usual, photoz time!

sharp 0800, START!!

tiz year im not goin to run/walk fast

i make some changes..

choose to walk on my own relax speed..

all the way...

visually enjoying the green trees..

auditory listening to the birds singing..

verbally keep breathing in......out...slowly

hmmm...the air is so fresh~

after nearly 1 hour of walk..roughly 5K

we end the walk with collected our goodies bag

Hot..sweaty....tired...

only words can describe after the walk

but is worth it la...healthy most important!

throughout the walk..

luckily i choose to walk in slow pace

if nt,i'll miss all the beautiful scenery

okay~is time to take a nap..

feel sleepy..

actually i only for few hour before the walk

guess wat?? i had been to watch movie l/nite

INCEPTION!!!

the story is all about dreaming..

in different stage...

is a nice movie..i wana watch it for twice!!

it has to use a lotz of brain juice to think..

sory no cure!

arghhhhhh!!! wat the *#@**#!!# why tiz few day i oso like tat ge...terrible in bad mood!! honesty last time when i get anger..i wont easily use or speak out bad words..i will try to control myself..but nw i notice im quite use to it to release my anger!! dunoe the reason..but it help!

hengggg!! from tiz seconds onwards,tiz person really make me feel terrible disappoint on her...i deeply loss my confidence on her..now, to me she is a fish monger! SELFISH..sorry, she make me feel tat..i have to express here..orelse i will get mad of myself!

we knew each others more than two years..turn to become a close friend more than 3 months..before we get to knew each other deeply..we just a hi bye friend..but within the 3 months we get to knew each othere quite well..but today,from tiz seconds onwards..she make me put a full stop in our realtionship! i ask myself again and again..why la..have to turn up like tat..is better to have more friends than enermy..but very sorry,i cant take it..she is not exist in my friend list anymore.. she give me a feeling of betraying me..i hate it!! you can make jokes on me..i can be the clown if i can make u more smile or more happier..scold me if you are dun satisfy with me..but not betray me! my feelings of get betray by her is not just one incident...is more than that! at least 3rd or 4th incidents lead me have that feelings..

the incident that she really disappoint my hope on her is about a runs. she told me that last time she did joined some k.l runs..so,in such inconincidene a runs was goin to held at k.l..im definitely interested and register for the runs..so,i asked her..do u wana joined together with me..we take the same category..since we din joined a runs together before..and she also agreed..i din pujuk her or watz..she willing to take it..okok fine! when nearly to the dats of runs, im inform from email for race pack collection..but tat time im working..cant get leave and no offday..so, i terpaksa asked her to get it for me..becoz, she also have to get it ma..i did the con sent letter..photostate ic everything done..and pass it to her. Ahah~ the day before the run..i did msg and called her tat time and place we will meet. so,early morning about 6am i called her when im on the way to the place..i just inform her im on the way..confirm her exactly place..u noe wat she say ?? " sorya..im not cuming for the run..becoz i get sore throat..scare later run till halfway fainted." when i heard it, im freeze!! WATZZZ?? PARDON?? omgosh~ dun you have a brain?? or answer me in sleepyness??!! wat you aspect me to wear? i have no vest.....nvm, i can wear last year vest..but how about the bib number?? is okay...but the most important is my Chip!! without it how u gonna me get to noe my rank & timing?? no matter how i have to get it..becoz i pay for the run! End out, i solve it with driving F1 to her place and get it from her..when reach to get it oredi 6:30am..my run start at 7am..so,do u think tat i can get there on time..start run at 7am?!! is impossble..sumore the full and half marathon runner already start their run earlier..all the way get to dataran got road blocking! ishhh~ luckily when i reach there..they just begun the run 5 mins earlier..the runner is running all the way from starter line. me le?? running all the way opposite to them to start my run at starter..becoz have to step on the mat and activate the chip..im doin a big U-turn lo!! wasting my energy..everybody is looking at me..feel uncomfortable..never happen before..and will not happen also..i alwayz prepare myself..make sure sufficient warm up! but she make my runs upside down!! okay fine~might me a small matter for you..but i really concern for result...my rank and timing! the timing at least i can time myself but the rank..i have to check online..so, wat i did ?? i type my name..''sory,we din have any record.." nvm mayb is not accurate..i type my bib number-80223 ..henggg~ guess wat? is her name!!!!!!! wat the FFFFFF how can you do tat to me???!! dun told me tat u wrongly taken to me..i cant accept it!! is such a big mistake u made!! it means tat tiz year i wont have my certificate! but she will get my certificate by post...omgosh~ till nw i still cant accept it is a reality..my emotion still unable to stable down! i work hard to run all the way...till berpeluh peluh..then u get the certificate! it might be a small matter to me..but not me pls~ i did collect it from years to year...nw im missing one of it because of u! ur ''good deeds''! you make me cant close up my eye to sleep..haihzz~ the conclusion tat i can make from all the incidences is -she cant be trusted..selfish...hopeless..

other than the above attitude, the worst is eventhough she dunoe the things or not familier with the place..she will say ''yaya i know it..i know the way..trust me..i can guide u" bullshit!! if you dunoe say you dunoe la...i wont blame or scold you..but pls dun berlagak there..with full confidence! untill show me the wrong way...i have to do turning and turning..when i double confirm with her'' are you sure noe the wat to get there?" i asked ''yaya..you follow this way first..when you reach to that area i only will rmb the way to continue.." she answered. aiyooo..mean you are not sure lo..so,what for you guide me? i told her that i oredi google map to go..but it might take a long time ..but she answered.."nvm you just follow my way..i will lead you" end out until sesak jalan..till have to call friend to help us getting out from there..haihzz~ terrible!! my mood still not cool enough yet..hot hot hot!!

Moody day

ishhhhh~~ just in one day i oredi get more than one bad news...again..the news is worst than the first one..just end a called from my friend or can say as colleague also..here it go the story..

''halo gurl, how r u? enjoy working there?" after a week i quit myself from working there as a part timer..i asked

" not really..i got a terrible scold by the supervisor just nw.." omgosh~ i just cant imagine wat a big mistake she made...as usual i noe she is quite sotong..do things with slow speed a bit..but all this i oredi told her the mistake and advise to improve dy before im leaving..she answered

'' wat have you do till get scold?" im so curious of it..normally i just get some ejek..or advise when ever they dun satisfy with me..not even till scold..i asked

" becoz she scold me tat i din serve the cunstomer when they are inside the butik..bt i really din see the customer cuming in..and me and other staff is busying doin packings.."she answered

"omgosh~ only becoz of tat u get scold by her?? " i asked

" yaya...but actually i think the supervisor heard a big bad news from manager that provoke her anger" she answered

''so do u noe watz big bad news?" i asked

then she told me that the butik is goin to close soon..we are now doing stock clearance..both the branch will not exist in malaysia soon...omgosh!!! im freeze when i heard it...i just quit there for one week...now you told me like tat??!! i cant believe it....the place itself gave me a lotz of sweet memories..mostly i gain my ''first'' thing there...
my first part time job, i get it there..
all of them is my first colleague, i din even have a colleague before..my first time join and work in the society ma...
my first time work in a butik..never expect tat too! not in my plan..
my first time cold until shivering and have to walk like penguine...then curi tulang in the toilet..
my first time i get my salary...again ..i never work before ma..just graduate frm Form 5 watzz
wow~ tatz is too many many first time..uncountable!

but back to the story...she get scold coz of the small matter!! they are bullying her just after i quit there??!! **#@!!& why they like tat ge?? i understand tat part timer is doing all the simple work such as steam shirts...fold the shirts...arrange the sizes..sumtimes if the staff is too busy ...we have to replenish stock oso..but if the staff is there when the customer is inside the butik..the priority to serve the customer is the permanent staff wat~ eii...dun forget they get comission ge...we only help them to serve customer when all of them have their own customer to busy!! at end when bill payment they have to key in their own code lo..so,wat the XX u scold my friend??!! instead of the permanet staff is beside her..or he is a senior staff, dun dare to scold?! i dun think so loo..after tat sumore not enough...complaning to all the staff tat my friend keep the customer as transparent dy...omgosh! hw can u say tat...come on la..i noe my friend very well..she is nt tat type of person..when im there,i saw myself she came to work early and back home not on time ge lo..again nearly 7pm, is the time of my friend end her day of work..but the floor is only left her and another staff..the other is still on dinner break not on floor yet..so,the staff on floor with her ask to go back first..he can cover up and the other will on floor soon..my friend just follow order..becoz he is the senior staff ma..scare gt scold again..hmmm..when she taking bag from locker..again, the supervisor say to the staff tat having dinner break " hey, u better make it fast..go on floor..ur MORNING SHIFT colleague tak sempat nak balik rumah dy" my friend heard it.. but tat time is oredi 7:15pm...

haihzz..sorya my friend!! i did a big mistake...pls forgive me..i shouldnt asked you to work here with me...i din expect they scan through you and make comparison between us...i noe tat was really hurt you a lotz..sorry~ sorry and sorry ..the only i can say...bt nvm, stay strong! you still have 2 weeks time with them...gambateh!!! i noe you can do it...just tahan for few more days..but i also hope tat the supervisor just scold her when she is angry enough becoz of the big bad news bt not she make the small mistake! becoz ..i oso get scold by her last time..sumtimes for me,she has a sot sot brain..orelse she must be din take her medicine to control her anger..alwayz mood swing! may god bless you

okay....time to recharged battery..
it gonna be another day with the sunshine~ @.@

Relaxing saturday

the time now is nearly 5pm...i just finish chit chating with my dearest ''mummy'' at fb..since she not often hanging ard fb..so,i grab my chance to chat with her..hmm..almost half the day gone, but we din really chat much..becoz she is also busying her paper works..till not take her lunch..an excuse of ''malas''..if she told me earlier, i think i had made a delivery to her office..huhuuuu~ finally i feel relieve when i can heard her laughter again...u see?!! it prove tat im sure she can make it~ out from depression...thank god!! glad to hear she say ''ok'' again..tiz time she is 100% okay...orait..i noe tat! she memang tigress bah..stay strong~

wat have i do for my whole day?? hahaha...good question! the only answer pop out in my mind is ..hanging around fb...whole day fb?? dun u feel bored?? hmm..not really..while chit chat with her...harvesting my plant...reply fb msg....browsing photoz and give some comments..tatz it! how i spend my saturday....wat a relaxing one~ all this is totally out of my plan last night..i thought of do some revision of the lecture slide...write some short notes...prepare for next week lesson..but...i failed!!

anywayz, im quite happy tat i can spend the day like this..since long long time ago, i din do this..can sleep until 11am without worries of assignment..works...or disturb by others..then,have my brunch..then,hanging around facebook till now..relax~

hmm... i think i should stop it right now...feel worries for my study..hw can i get CGPA 3.5 above le..nonono..i just cant imagine if i fail an subject becoz of facebook!! wat a lame excuse...i should start now!! gambateh!!!

Never give up!!
it gonna be another day with the sunshine~