sory no cure!

arghhhhhh!!! wat the *#@**#!!# why tiz few day i oso like tat ge...terrible in bad mood!! honesty last time when i get anger..i wont easily use or speak out bad words..i will try to control myself..but nw i notice im quite use to it to release my anger!! dunoe the reason..but it help!

hengggg!! from tiz seconds onwards,tiz person really make me feel terrible disappoint on her...i deeply loss my confidence on her..now, to me she is a fish monger! SELFISH..sorry, she make me feel tat..i have to express here..orelse i will get mad of myself!

we knew each others more than two years..turn to become a close friend more than 3 months..before we get to knew each other deeply..we just a hi bye friend..but within the 3 months we get to knew each othere quite well..but today,from tiz seconds onwards..she make me put a full stop in our realtionship! i ask myself again and again..why la..have to turn up like tat..is better to have more friends than enermy..but very sorry,i cant take it..she is not exist in my friend list anymore.. she give me a feeling of betraying me..i hate it!! you can make jokes on me..i can be the clown if i can make u more smile or more happier..scold me if you are dun satisfy with me..but not betray me! my feelings of get betray by her is not just one incident...is more than that! at least 3rd or 4th incidents lead me have that feelings..

the incident that she really disappoint my hope on her is about a runs. she told me that last time she did joined some k.l runs..so,in such inconincidene a runs was goin to held at k.l..im definitely interested and register for the runs..so,i asked her..do u wana joined together with me..we take the same category..since we din joined a runs together before..and she also agreed..i din pujuk her or watz..she willing to take it..okok fine! when nearly to the dats of runs, im inform from email for race pack collection..but tat time im working..cant get leave and no offday..so, i terpaksa asked her to get it for me..becoz, she also have to get it ma..i did the con sent letter..photostate ic everything done..and pass it to her. Ahah~ the day before the run..i did msg and called her tat time and place we will meet. so,early morning about 6am i called her when im on the way to the place..i just inform her im on the way..confirm her exactly place..u noe wat she say ?? " sorya..im not cuming for the run..becoz i get sore throat..scare later run till halfway fainted." when i heard it, im freeze!! WATZZZ?? PARDON?? omgosh~ dun you have a brain?? or answer me in sleepyness??!! wat you aspect me to wear? i have no vest.....nvm, i can wear last year vest..but how about the bib number?? is okay...but the most important is my Chip!! without it how u gonna me get to noe my rank & timing?? no matter how i have to get it..becoz i pay for the run! End out, i solve it with driving F1 to her place and get it from her..when reach to get it oredi 6:30am..my run start at 7am..so,do u think tat i can get there on time..start run at 7am?!! is impossble..sumore the full and half marathon runner already start their run earlier..all the way get to dataran got road blocking! ishhh~ luckily when i reach there..they just begun the run 5 mins earlier..the runner is running all the way from starter line. me le?? running all the way opposite to them to start my run at starter..becoz have to step on the mat and activate the chip..im doin a big U-turn lo!! wasting my energy..everybody is looking at me..feel uncomfortable..never happen before..and will not happen also..i alwayz prepare myself..make sure sufficient warm up! but she make my runs upside down!! okay fine~might me a small matter for you..but i really concern for result...my rank and timing! the timing at least i can time myself but the rank..i have to check online..so, wat i did ?? i type my name..''sory,we din have any record.." nvm mayb is not accurate..i type my bib number-80223 ..henggg~ guess wat? is her name!!!!!!! wat the FFFFFF how can you do tat to me???!! dun told me tat u wrongly taken to me..i cant accept it!! is such a big mistake u made!! it means tat tiz year i wont have my certificate! but she will get my certificate by post...omgosh~ till nw i still cant accept it is a reality..my emotion still unable to stable down! i work hard to run all the way...till berpeluh peluh..then u get the certificate! it might be a small matter to me..but not me pls~ i did collect it from years to year...nw im missing one of it because of u! ur ''good deeds''! you make me cant close up my eye to sleep..haihzz~ the conclusion tat i can make from all the incidences is -she cant be trusted..selfish...hopeless..

other than the above attitude, the worst is eventhough she dunoe the things or not familier with the place..she will say ''yaya i know it..i know the way..trust me..i can guide u" bullshit!! if you dunoe say you dunoe la...i wont blame or scold you..but pls dun berlagak there..with full confidence! untill show me the wrong way...i have to do turning and turning..when i double confirm with her'' are you sure noe the wat to get there?" i asked ''yaya..you follow this way first..when you reach to that area i only will rmb the way to continue.." she answered. aiyooo..mean you are not sure lo..so,what for you guide me? i told her that i oredi google map to go..but it might take a long time ..but she answered.."nvm you just follow my way..i will lead you" end out until sesak jalan..till have to call friend to help us getting out from there..haihzz~ terrible!! my mood still not cool enough yet..hot hot hot!!

Moody day

ishhhhh~~ just in one day i oredi get more than one bad news...again..the news is worst than the first one..just end a called from my friend or can say as colleague also..here it go the story..

''halo gurl, how r u? enjoy working there?" after a week i quit myself from working there as a part timer..i asked

" not really..i got a terrible scold by the supervisor just nw.." omgosh~ i just cant imagine wat a big mistake she made...as usual i noe she is quite sotong..do things with slow speed a bit..but all this i oredi told her the mistake and advise to improve dy before im leaving..she answered

'' wat have you do till get scold?" im so curious of it..normally i just get some ejek..or advise when ever they dun satisfy with me..not even till scold..i asked

" becoz she scold me tat i din serve the cunstomer when they are inside the butik..bt i really din see the customer cuming in..and me and other staff is busying doin packings.."she answered

"omgosh~ only becoz of tat u get scold by her?? " i asked

" yaya...but actually i think the supervisor heard a big bad news from manager that provoke her anger" she answered

''so do u noe watz big bad news?" i asked

then she told me that the butik is goin to close soon..we are now doing stock clearance..both the branch will not exist in malaysia soon...omgosh!!! im freeze when i heard it...i just quit there for one week...now you told me like tat??!! i cant believe it....the place itself gave me a lotz of sweet memories..mostly i gain my ''first'' thing there...
my first part time job, i get it there..
all of them is my first colleague, i din even have a colleague before..my first time join and work in the society ma...
my first time work in a butik..never expect tat too! not in my plan..
my first time cold until shivering and have to walk like penguine...then curi tulang in the toilet..
my first time i get my salary...again ..i never work before ma..just graduate frm Form 5 watzz
wow~ tatz is too many many first time..uncountable!

but back to the story...she get scold coz of the small matter!! they are bullying her just after i quit there??!! **#@!!& why they like tat ge?? i understand tat part timer is doing all the simple work such as steam shirts...fold the shirts...arrange the sizes..sumtimes if the staff is too busy ...we have to replenish stock oso..but if the staff is there when the customer is inside the butik..the priority to serve the customer is the permanent staff wat~ eii...dun forget they get comission ge...we only help them to serve customer when all of them have their own customer to busy!! at end when bill payment they have to key in their own code lo..so,wat the XX u scold my friend??!! instead of the permanet staff is beside her..or he is a senior staff, dun dare to scold?! i dun think so loo..after tat sumore not enough...complaning to all the staff tat my friend keep the customer as transparent dy...omgosh! hw can u say tat...come on la..i noe my friend very well..she is nt tat type of person..when im there,i saw myself she came to work early and back home not on time ge lo..again nearly 7pm, is the time of my friend end her day of work..but the floor is only left her and another staff..the other is still on dinner break not on floor yet..so,the staff on floor with her ask to go back first..he can cover up and the other will on floor soon..my friend just follow order..becoz he is the senior staff ma..scare gt scold again..hmmm..when she taking bag from locker..again, the supervisor say to the staff tat having dinner break " hey, u better make it fast..go on floor..ur MORNING SHIFT colleague tak sempat nak balik rumah dy" my friend heard it.. but tat time is oredi 7:15pm...

haihzz..sorya my friend!! i did a big mistake...pls forgive me..i shouldnt asked you to work here with me...i din expect they scan through you and make comparison between us...i noe tat was really hurt you a lotz..sorry~ sorry and sorry ..the only i can say...bt nvm, stay strong! you still have 2 weeks time with them...gambateh!!! i noe you can do it...just tahan for few more days..but i also hope tat the supervisor just scold her when she is angry enough becoz of the big bad news bt not she make the small mistake! becoz ..i oso get scold by her last time..sumtimes for me,she has a sot sot brain..orelse she must be din take her medicine to control her anger..alwayz mood swing! may god bless you

okay....time to recharged battery..
it gonna be another day with the sunshine~ @.@

Relaxing saturday

the time now is nearly 5pm...i just finish chit chating with my dearest ''mummy'' at fb..since she not often hanging ard fb..so,i grab my chance to chat with her..hmm..almost half the day gone, but we din really chat much..becoz she is also busying her paper works..till not take her lunch..an excuse of ''malas''..if she told me earlier, i think i had made a delivery to her office..huhuuuu~ finally i feel relieve when i can heard her laughter again...u see?!! it prove tat im sure she can make it~ out from depression...thank god!! glad to hear she say ''ok'' again..tiz time she is 100% okay...orait..i noe tat! she memang tigress bah..stay strong~

wat have i do for my whole day?? hahaha...good question! the only answer pop out in my mind is ..hanging around fb...whole day fb?? dun u feel bored?? hmm..not really..while chit chat with her...harvesting my plant...reply fb msg....browsing photoz and give some comments..tatz it! how i spend my saturday....wat a relaxing one~ all this is totally out of my plan last night..i thought of do some revision of the lecture slide...write some short notes...prepare for next week lesson..but...i failed!!

anywayz, im quite happy tat i can spend the day like this..since long long time ago, i din do this..can sleep until 11am without worries of assignment..works...or disturb by others..then,have my brunch..then,hanging around facebook till now..relax~

hmm... i think i should stop it right now...feel worries for my study..hw can i get CGPA 3.5 above le..nonono..i just cant imagine if i fail an subject becoz of facebook!! wat a lame excuse...i should start now!! gambateh!!!

Never give up!!
it gonna be another day with the sunshine~

Helpless

hmm...out of a sudden,my mood swing after heard sumthing bad happen about her..i have the urge to call instead of send sms..but just worry might disturbing her from busying sumthing important..at last,i make a called...

i asked ''halo~ are u okay? oredi have ur dinner?"

but im sure tat she didnt have appetide to have it..but i wish she will answer yes, i did..

she answer " ya..im okay..i didnt hv my dinner.."

she answer with a sad tone with worries..is obviously not cheer up..her ''okay'' make me more worries..didnt sound like ok at all but still tahan~

afta a few minutes of talking to her..i decided to end the called..becoz im helpless~the way i think that can help is cheer up her mind set..so,i should stop buzzing around her ears...give her some time and rest her mind....then, i end my words by advising her at least drink sumthing ..dun ever sleep with empty stomach..

anywayz, im sure she can gone through tiz tough days..
Gambateh !!! we will alwayz support u...
everything will have it own solution...
Never Give Up in ur job..dun premature pls~
It gonna be another day with the sunshine..^^

Holiday mood~

hmm...since such a long time i din update..out of a sudden,i jz rmb ooo~ i hv a blog..and i notice tat everytime i only rmb it when i feel confusing or lonely..start to monolog here..hehe..



wow~it oredi more than one month im back from kch of my practical..bt,maybe the exam...activities..during tiz 3 weeks makes me keep busying and forget bout time fly..from now,i m just really sit down and think of myself..wat had i did for tiz upper half year..did i use it wisely?? think so~ attend classes...study...practical...final exam...part time work..+ sum short holidays! really enjoy myself to the max even just for few days in tioman!



today is the first day bak to college for class...is new semester again! but when our lecture say''hey student,tiz semester is ur final year dy..still in empty brain?? could not be..if nt u're deeply in red light..'' his ''final year'' really make me awake! omgosh~im a year 3 student dy...im senior..bt hw cum i still feeling like not my basic is not strong enough...cant answer sum simple question oso..haihzz~really need to brush up myself before for second practical placement..if nt sure will kena bullet ..opsss~i dun think is bullet dy..is meriam!! anywayz, im still in holiday mood la..the first half an hour in the class,im fully concentrated...bt the last one hour...im keep on adjusting myself frm the chair..so tak biasa sitting on the chair for such a long time..then,i start dreaming...hehe...bt thank god! today our lecture ffk us for two lesson..so,i only go for college to attend one class...so,hopefully next week im can away from hoilday mood dy..fully concentrate!!!



ohya! do u noe wat make me rmb of tiz blog again?? tat is my god ma,mak panda...and the others two mak-mak..i really miss them even though just afta bak from tioman trip with them..though the days spent with them is less...not really full 10 week with them in kch..if im not mistaken,only could knew them on our third week of practical..bt,thank god! our faith get us hold together....still rmb when the first day i reach kch,my mind is blue...hw can i survive here for 10 weeks?? since i had sum bad memories here...hmm not really bad la..or i can say tat i have faith with kch,swk..i did my NS there..at sematan! so, i deeply understand wat is ''homesick''!! luckily i manage to gone through the tough days there and tahan sampai last day,7 june only out frm camp..and bak to k.l...cz most of my friends came together with me gone bak early..most of them gave the reason of form 6! have to go bak start school... again, i got homesick for first few days of my practical at kch,GH..sumore the ady get bullet frm the first day of practical...so stress out!! but,tiz time the homesick not so bad..at least i have my coursemate gone through together with me...tahan!! out of a sudden,really din expect it to be happen! my day turn into colourful till i meet them..all the sweet memories together...oredi store in my deep heart core~ and i'll never regret to make another silly decision bak to kch again..since last 2 years i oredi had faith with kch..so,if possible...i really pray i can bak there once more time to do my second placement..people might say tat my decision is silly enough..why not go and explore others place??but i really dun care...i miss my mummy a lotz...i think they also miss us a lotz..till they have to get into fb...to update themselves and learn to use it...aiya..so troublesome for them~ but anywayz,do take care of urself...jaga bp..cholesterol...exercise is a must! till now, i dunoe when we can meet again...only can wait for good timing..bt actually im afraid of wait wait n wait..end out we lost contact..since it is a long distance relationship..so sumtimes is difficult to maintain it...bit i'll try mybest to make it out! though last time i did have besties for five years since form 1-5..everyday we'll meet each other in school..bt afta graduation..we lost contact! such a waste~



haihzz...................................................................confusing~time for dinner!

start moving~ Never Give up!!
it gonna be another day with the sunshine...
gambate..@.@

sarawakian!

hmm..as i promise,i will share sumthing with u all..
start from the day,i step into physio department...
throughout my own observation n experience.....
people in sarawak can further divide into two group; good/bad

wat mean good? they are very friendly...trustful...helpful..etc
from the first day i start to work at sarawak general hospital(SGH)..i found out tat i oredi got communication probs..omg! below is sum of the basic language tat i learn frm them:
sik=no/not si non=di sini kamek=me kita= you aou=yes

aikss..the worst part is most of the patient speak sarawak bm with me lol~
i ask ''mak cik,mana sakit?'' she answer'' si non'' pointing her thigh..
then further i ask''sudah berapa lama mak cik sakit?'' she answer sumthing i really nt understand..tat moment make me wana waves white flag dy..hw can i finsh my assessment and treat them..haihzz speechless~
afta tat,i start to think think n think ..y most of the patient talk to me in swk bm?
out of sudden,i ask the physio there..am i looks like swkian? they asnwer'' actually u looks like bidayuh lo..'' im like OMGOSH~no wonder tiz happen!

Day by day..luckily i manage to handle it la..with all my sign and body language..
opss..back to the good people here..

Actually i feel luckily tat i manage to make friends with 2 of the patient tat i treat..among the patients,aunty sarojah @ mdm kho are the one who alwayz bring us out to travel around kuching in weekend...they really treat us as their own daughter dy..hehehe..

how i meet aunty sarojah?? of course she is my patient,but she gt shoulder pain probs..
so, while giving her the treatment..i chit chat with her..
when she noe tat im nt local and bored to stuck in the room in weekend..straight away she ask for my hp number and promise to bring us to church on good friday...tat kind of happiness was really unable to describe it la..wow~she is so nice la..the further weekend, she also bring us go shopping at the spring...and her niece burfday BBQ party! hahahaha...

how i meet mdm kho? wow~do u notice ''mdm'' she is not ordinary mdm of house wife oo...she is a POLICEWOMEN ! lol when i filling in the occupation..i was like??!! huh~policewomen! r u? she answer''ya~ soory..it doesnt mean i dun trust her..bt,in my life is the first time i meet a chinese policewomen..actually from the gait she walk into our department i oredi notice sumthing special
about her....bcoz she 100% gt the wayz of the policeman walk! tegaknya~ but unluckily she gt lowback pain probs..actually is early prolapse intervertebra disc (PID)..as usual i chit chat with patient...i ask her'' y sarawakian close their shop so early? the first weekend we din manage to hv our dinner..restaurant was close! youngster here din hv night life ge meh? and lotz lotz of questions...then,again she ask for my hp no and promise to bring me out in one of the weekend..wow~extremly happy dy!!! Afta work, we walked bak room...n planing the place to hv our dinner...when open the door,my phone rang~~is HER !! u gals jz finish work?yaya~ wana go out hv dinner? of course~later i fetch u gals out k? okok! when end of the called, we were too exciting dy till jumping here n there.. OMGOSH! she can read our mind~ so,we hv our dinner at cross river(tourist place) and order the famous ayam penyet!
afta tat day,she become our god mother dy..as well as emak panda..bcoz we are the anak panda who like to hv night life..hahaha..

hmm...my mind is in hibernate mode...
time to sleep bcoz hv to save more energy to work in ward tml..
so, the story of bad people ..to be continue~
take k..@.@

All about dayz in kuching,swk???!!!!

wuhoo~time flies ya....about 1 month im here,kuching!!!!! a lotz lotz of things wana share with u..
-the people here..
-the environment here..
-the food here..
-the language here..

waitz~im gonna begin my story with how i spent my day..today!

early morning,around 8am woke up ..then leave the room around 0930...ride a bus to kuching pasar..walk around at indian street..waterfront( tourist place)..actually my friend and me are finding sum breakfast to eat..end out cant find any nice food to eat...with the emtpy stomach we walk along the souvenir street...coz the day before we plan to buy it early dy.. afta 3 hours of walk walk n walk..finally i cant tahan the lapar dy..since they are so enjoying bargain goods..so im jz sitting aside,gv sum comments and wait for them..afta sumtime i cant even do tat dy..EXTREMELY LAPAR!!! they notice dy..so,we went to eat malay foods-nasi lemak special..really special !! rm4 like normal la..rice,sambal,ikan bilis,kacang..bt only hv 2 cold CHICKEN WING~ im in hunger dy..y he treat me like tat..the menu piccha show chicken breast..bt nw turn into wing! walao~ afta tat meal, again we continue to shops for souvenir.. another 3 hours..around 1600 we end our shopping by eating the famous ABC at open air market..again we ride a bus to our house.

Ohya! we saw a gangs of youngster curi the money in the box when the bus driver not in bus..wow!! they so brave rr!! we only noe tat they are pencuri when the bus driver ask us where the money gone??!! when they took the $$, we thought they are jz playing with the bus driver..so pity the bus driver searching around the gangs of pencuri..then, we cant wait for the bus driver to search anymore..we oredi wait frm 1730 to 1830 ..the last bus to our area was 1830..so,we jz took another bus to back house..Pity the bus driver la..may god bless him~

afta having our cathering dinner,out of sudden we think of today gt night market at Satok area..so,again we went there by walking..walk walk n walk..till around 2130 back home!
yea~my dayz end with blogging...

sorry..is late nw..feel sleepy dy..
nxt blog i only continue my story of people i meet here la..
nitez! @.@